How do I explain myself to my parents?

Do you have any other family that might be more understanding? If so it might be a good idea to try to talk to them. Even close friends if there are no family. If you don't even have that then the best thing you could do is probably to just lay low. If you can get your family to just drop it for a while you may be able to lay low and have everyone forget about it until you are older and can get out of there. Good Luck!